Broken Toys

As children bring their broken toys,

With tears for us to mend;

I brought my broken dreams to God

Because he was my friend.

But then instead of leaving him in peace to work alone,

I hung around and tried to help, with ways that were my own.

At last I snatched them back and cried

"How could you be so slow?"

"My child," He said, "What could I do?

You never did let go..."
-author unknown

Habits

Habits don't just come and go,
they come, and stay, they rarely ever do leave.
When a habit becomes a habit, we may never really know,
Or so I think, as another habit weaves.

Habits don't die, they live with us,
Of course, they may go on a never ending sabbatical.
Who knows when a habit breaks, no one ever does.
Keeping a track seems fit, but impractical.

Habits don't just have to be things,
People can become our habits too,
What one does, says, hears or thinks,
Can be the habit for another person, or two.

People-habits are the most dangerous ones,
These sabbaticals hurt the heart the most.
The absence creates darkness, that can't by even a million suns can't be undone,
But life goes on, lifeless, like a ghost.
Whether the absence is for a month or a day,
Life is hard, breathing is strenuous and unfulfilling,
The heart at memories, does set its bay,
And each moment is hard, extremely gruelling.

These people-habits, like addictions, make us needy.
Desperate for their company, it leaves us wounded.
Our heart lies alone, bleeding.
The horrible emptiness, the feeling of being undead.

For our completion, for our healing,
We need those people, for our happiness, up close,
Cause only they can undo the fiery heart ache feelings,
Cause only they are our drug's last dose.

Still Life

Scenes go rushing by,
People scurry away like ants;
Even before it settles infront of my eye,
The moment has passed, right out of my hand.

Snap! It changes-the scene again.
Circumstances, situations, people-none the same.
Sometimes change can be sch a pain!
Popularity-then loneliness, and a sudden lack of fame.

Life was running out, like sand from my fingers,
Everything was havoc, inanimate motion.
Somewhere, in the back of my mind, a memory would linger,
But none to stay, or clarify life's notions.

Sudden, like a gust of wind, came along another change,
And changed everything, unlike how the previous ones did,
The motion, it came to a sudden stop, strange!
But the best change it is, I'd like to admit.

A new light, a new way of looking at life;
A still life, atleast that's how it looks,
An easier living, smiling without much strife,
That's how by you, my life has been shook.

Every moment is longer, more full of life than ever,
I grasp every shade, fairy tale and fable.
Everything you do seems right, everything said clever,
I love how your presence makes my life so stable.

The tremors of change aren't all that strong now,
Life is slower, more enjoyable, full of colour.
Still life, more beautiful, more full of rainbows,
Still life, yet more exuberant and full of fervor.

Celebrations, festivals-every other day.
Fireworks stay in the sky, till I've seen every spark;
And everyday, with more trust now I pray.
Cause now, I have my guiding light, to guide me out of the dark.

Her Heart...

Her heart was racing crazy wild,
Her breaths she kept trying to mild,
Every now and then, she's sneak a look at his face;
And each time that their eyes met, she was left in a daze.

She couldn't stare at his face for more than 2 seconds at a times;
Cause after that her heart would race like caught committing a crime;
He was sitting opposite her, engrossed in his books;
And she was engrossed in his warm eyes and brilliant looks.

Constantly fearing that he might just hear,
The sound of her heart beating, loud and clear;
Through the silence of the quiet library hall,
The thought of that that made her flying heart fall.

She tried to concentrate on what she was reading,
But she was distracted by her heart's erratic beating.
He moved in his chair, her heart skipped a beat,
Was he already leaving? or worse! changing his seat?

Neither, it turned out, he just picked another book,
And she was wondering how to grab his attention,by hook or crook!
Must be some weird book he's reading, she thought with a frown,
He's been reading it since quite long, keeping it upside down!

Her brain told her to leave, to go away from him,
Her heart hold her to wait, ignoring the brain grim.
He looked up to look at something that very minute,
Her heart said he was blushing, but she didn't believe it.

She decided to leave, she gathered her belongings,
He started packing too, and she looked at him with longing.
She walked out of the hall, clutching her bag tightly,
She felt sad and lonely, even incomplete slightly.

"Hey" a deep voice boomed behind her,
Slowly she turned, and saw him standing beside her.
Her heart stopped beating, her eyes widened in surprise,
He was really there, in truth,sweet and nice!

"Hi" she managed to say, with a small, weak smile;
Then there was a silence, for a little while.
"I don't know how to say this" he said, fidgeting a little,
Her heart was thumping pretty hard, it seemed a little brittle.

"I don't mean to scare you, but I just can't seem to stop,
Thinking about you, you are in my every thought.
I know we don't really know each other that well,
But if you give me a chance, for us it would be swell!"

Her heart was still beating fast, maybe faster than light.
She couldn't believe how everything was falling in places right;
Dis he really mean what she thought he meant?
Did he really spend every minute like he said he spent?

"I can't concentrate, all I think about is you",
Looking in her eyes, he once again continued;
"Ever since I've seen you, my world's gone upside down,
And every single second, in your thoughts, further I drown."

"That explains the book", she thought to herself and smiled,
Her heart was sort of jumping, like a little child.
"Somehow every time I see you", she said,"my heart always flutters",
"And if you could walk me home, we could get to know each other",

He smiled and said,"I'd love to", and they begun to walk,
They laughed and shared, and continued their sweet talk.
Her heart found peace, as did his,and love was in the air;
And thus they found happiness, true joy, passion and care! 

Orange!

  As I walk down the empty road,
On this morning, bright and cold,
I am amazed by what I behold;
And this is how the view unfolds.

Amidst the many hues of green,
In these bushes, thick and clean.
Are some blossoms earlier unseen,
Bright and orange, so full of sheen.

The sudden change in the view,
Baffles me, seems out of the blue,
And just like the first few drops of dew,
Thoughts settle in my mind, fresh and new.

Even in our lives there are times when
We are encountered by such situations and men,
That seem somewhat impossible to happen,
But still are, right there and then.

Changes can come come anytime and anywhere
And sometimes, all we do is stand and stare;
And sometimes when we get  for what we care,
It seems like God has answered our deepest prayer.

But sometimes in life, there comes a time,
When all we do ends up with results of crimes.
And at such times it feels like we've eaten just limes,
And self esteem is so low, it wouldn't be worth a dime!

But this is when I must remember what I have just seen,
That there can be orange, randomly in the green.
So if right now, life seems dull and ugly as a spleen,
Know that very soon, its going to be better than your dream!

The World Spins Madly On

Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
I thought of you and where you'd gone
and let the world spin madly on

Everything that I said I'd do
Like make the world brand new
And take the time for you
I just got lost and slept right through the dawn
And the world spins madly on

I let the day go by
I always say goodbye
I watch the stars from my window sill
The whole world is moving and I'm standing still

Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
The night is here and the day is gone
And the world spins madly on

I thought of you and where you'd gone
And the world spins madly on.
                                             -The Weepies

I Wish You Were Here

Its been a while since I saw you last
All we had, all we shared, is a thing of the past.
But even today, in my heart its your voice I hear
And even now, I wish you were here.

We talk everyday, anytime that is possible for us,
We're on the phone till dawn from dusk.
When you succeed, mine is the loudest cheer,
More than ever somehow, I wish you were here.

You know how I'm feeling without a word from me,
You're a thousand miles away, but you still somehow see.
You watch over me, even though we're not near,
Over and over I repeat, I wish you were here.

I close my eyes and I see your smiling face
I yearn to be with you, play a game of chase.
As the time flies by, distance becomes harder to bear,
Everynight when I pray, I wish you were here.

I still remember everything we did and said,
You've become that little voice in the back of my head;
You are there in every smile and each tear,
But right now, I wish you were here.

I miss holding your arm when I'm scared or alone.
I miss your hugs and that sweet comforting tone.
I miss how your presence dissolved away every fear,
I try not to, but I wish you were here.

You're always on my mind, its like your permanent address,
Your face is the one that flashes in moments of sadness.
Your memories somehow, to everything adhere,
And I want to let you know, I wish you were here.

And so it begins...

I open my eyes to a different ceiling now,
For a moment, I want to close them again.
But then I open them as I remember my vow,
And so it begins, my morning with hopes for rain.

Monotonously I move, completing my daily chores,
I realize I'm smiling, thinking about the dream I'd just seen.
I am present here, while my mind wanders on different shores,
And so it begins, my routine, like a fixed machine.

The Sun is bright, the birds chirp tirelessly away,
The mood is lightening now, and i feel the weight lift off me.
The trees are tall, but where they are they stay,
And so it begins, my day, with smiles as true as they can be.

Its new, all this, its something unknown,
I miss the old times, but i like it here.
yes, I have reaped what once I'd sown,
And so it begins, my hope with no single tear.

Yes, I wish that this change would slow down,
And yes, I know how less the possibility is,
But I have the strength to get rid of my frown,
And so it begins, my life, hopefully, full of bliss.

The Change

She was so cheery and happy
There is a change in her now.
She's not mean and snappy
But she's different somehow...

Her laugh used to be the loudest among us all,
Contagious, very musical to the ear.
Now she walks alone in the empty hall,
And lives in distrust and fear...

I smile at her, She looks at me with her empty eyes,
They were warm once, but now they're plain cold.
I try to talk to her, but i get no replies
She's just 18, how come she looks so old?

She stares out the window, but her mind is definitely not there,
I want to see her happy, to hear her sweet laughter,
I want to bring a smile to her face, remove any trace of despair.
Why did it happen to her, that horrible disaster?

Life is unfair, but why to the innocent?
She did nothing wrong, no sin ever!
Always hard working and diligent
Here she is, hurt and scarred forever...

The faith and trust she once had are gone
But i won't give up, I'll bring her back!
I know in God's chess I am a mere pawn.
But I will fill colors into her life, even though now it's just black...

It's Okay to not be Okay...

My heart beats slowly now,
"Don't be sad, smile" they say,
I don't wish to listen somehow,
It's Okay to not be Okay!

I just want to lie down, and do nothin' at all,
Morning and night, all the time in the day,
Their attempts I keep trying to stall,
They don't understand, it's Okay to not be Okay!

They keep talking, more and more and more,
I tell them to leave but they stubbornly stay!
Their chatter now makes my ears sore...
Don't they know? It's Okay to not be Okay!

They try to divert my attention, they ask me NOT to think.
I pretend to be distracted, hoping now they'd go away,
I smile with them while my heart continues to sink,
After all, it's Okay to not be Okay...

In the lonely nights, I stare into the dark,
For a brighter morning, to the Almighty I pray.
Stinging me day and night, the truth is prominent and stark,
But I know, It's Okay to not be Okay...

Life moves on, and so did I,
In someways,that's all I say,
I'm okay now, though I still don't fly...
But I'll always know, It's Okay to not be Okay...

Please Don't Remind Me Again...

I know all good things come to an end,
Please don't remind me again.
I know what message you're trying to send,
But please don't remind me again.
I know what I'm supposed to do,
Please don't remind me again.
I know what this means to you,
But please don't remind me again.
I know what the future will hold,
Please don't remind me again.
I know you don't want to be told,
Yet, please don't remind me again.
I know everything that I should,
Please don't remind me again.
I know all you want is our good,
But please don't remind me again.
I know you don't want to be hurt,
Please don't remind me again.
I know you'd want back your shirt,
But, please, don't remind me again.
I know you're trying to be strong,
Please don't remind me again.
I know my demands here are wrong,
But please don't remind me again.
I know you don't want this love anymore,
Please don't remind me again.
I know why you're walking out that door,
But please don't remind me again.
I know I should try to move on too,
Please don't remind me again.
But I know I still love you,
Please help me undo this pain...

You and Me

Want to lie under the skies in your arms
Protected by love and all possible charms
Under the moon , beneath the bright stars
Unaware of others,of boundaries and bars..
A place with just us, just you and me
No sorrow, nor any misery..
A place with no hurt and no pains,
A place with bright sunshines and heavy rains,
Oh! and there'll be rainbows too,
Just for you and me, for us two..
No room for fuss, there would be just us,
Just us, and our smiles without any purpose,
A place where you and me can be in forever
Happily ourselves, us together.
There would be no hiding, nor any pretense,
No walls between us nor any form of fence..
Our laugh will be the music pure and divine,
I will be yours and you'll be just mine
A place to dance, to sing, to love,
A place to be free, free as a dove...

Is there?

Is there a place where no one needs to fit in?
Where all that matters is what is within?
Is there a place where we can cherish the reality?
Where there is an inherent transition between truth and morality?
Is there a place so blessed, that the air has the fragrance of love?
Where the gracious Gods smile at everyone from up above?
Is there a place of equality, of compassion and of care?
Where smiles and laughs are things that no one minds to share?
I'm sure there is this Heaven on Earth where we'll surely dwell  someday,
And if we can't find it, then for sure, we'll make it ourselves one day...