How?

How can this be friendship?
How can this be love?
How can this be anything
Not written in Heavens above?

How can there be such anger
Doused with that much lust?
How can there be magnanimous desire
In a land of adulterated rust?

How can someone contain
In their eyes the fires of hell,
And have the placid serendipity
Of Shangri-La as well?

How is it that someone
Can bring in so much color,
In a life made grey by everything
They represent,they do,they savour?

How can the infallible so easily fall,
When dependable is all they'd ever been?
How can there be such exuberance
In things that aren't supposed to have been?

How can your presence burn me up
And make me pine for more?
How can water both quench your thirst,
And leave you as parched as before?

How can I wish to hold your hand,
When my heart will never be yours?
When I know you need me right by your side,
How can I not plunge into these wars?

How could I think that fanning a spark,
Won't lead to a damn firestorm?
How can I still not wish to put it out?
After all, I know that its wrong.

It kills me when you're gone

I count the steps you take,

When you walk away,

And take my heart with.

I think you do, at least,

Cause the void that's in my chest.

Couldn't really be anything else.

The absence of you, of your smell,

Leaves me mad, leaves me depressed.

Oh, come back to me.

I'd rather take your indifference,

Than the heartbreak of your absence.

Please, do not leave.

My soul is scarred, your truancy burns.

At every footstep, my head turns.

Desperation, is this not?

Come back, come back soon.

Don't walk away, don't lengthen this June.

It kills me when you are gone.

His

I catch my eyes drifting,
To you, and your beautiful face.
He's sitting right beside you,
And I can't help but stare.
I'd stand up now, and kiss you.
Right now, right here.
I'd leave all, and run with you,
If you'd only care.

I watch you watch me all day,
From the corner of my eye.
I can't just let you do that,
He's sitting right by my side!
I long to let you hold me,
To lie in your embrace, tight
I hold my breath and wait
For the blanket of the night.

He plays with your hair,
Caresses your face
Gets to drown in your eyes,
And hold you by the waist.
Everytime he touches you,
It rips to shreds my bliss.
I feel my heart crash and burn.
Why are you only his?

He is a beautiful soul,
Like me, so much like me.
You are so very different,
Then how come you make me free?
You say all you've learnt of love,
You have from seeing us.
You say you know now what a heartbeat is.
But all I know-is being his.

Death

The shooting stars above our heads,

Sparks flying through the air, 

Between us.

Tearing my patience to shreds,

Your silent looks, that volatile stare.

Oh, how my strengths you test.

The tick of the clocks,

The light bugs,

And your glowing skin.

The racing pulses, eyes talk.

Passion unplugged.

And the beautiful sky we soar in.

As you push back from my face, 

Strands of hair come loose.

I hold my breath.

The air satiates with your taste.

Our hearts rush, neither calling a truce,

Is this sweet death?

Your fingertips trace my hand,

My face, my back.

My soul.

Everything wanted and unplanned,

Rising from smoke, pitch black,

Take shapes beyond my control.

The breeze leaves me shivering, cold;

Or is that you?

It is, isn't it?

Your touch tingles, lures,bites, and scores.

And without much ado, 

My heart, and soul you aggravate.

Myself, I try to free,from pain,

From you, from your embrace.

I avoid those cold, fiery eyes.

With all my strength I pull away,

And draw closer instead.

Oh sweet surprise.

My ecstasy, my eskimo, 

My death, you will be.

The happiest, most vicious death.

 As you burn me, lo, and behold,

To end, my smiles won't cease.

Embrace me, love me,Oh dear Death.

Lie to Me.

The light, it burns my soul.
The silence, it deafens me.
Closed eyes, closed minds.

I don't want to know.
I don't want to feel.
Waking up feels like demise.

Reliving those nights, by closing my eyes.
Your eyes tracing my back,
 As I walked away.

The footsteps, still echo,
 I can't remember
What did you always say?


What did you always sing?
I hum your tunes, like I used to then.
Sometimes, I just dance to no song.

I see you walk, down the street.
I see you look at me and leave.
Hasn't it already been too long?

Won't you look at me, won't you ever?
Won't you talk, or smile?
Don't look at me and make me unseen.

Silences drown me in wisps of smoke.
If there is nothing good left to say,
Just. Lie to me.

A conscious storm.

The sky is dark, the clouds roll in,

Languid-each step, every breath.

Lost in my thoughts, I walk in again,

And in my path, stop dead.

Back in those paths, once again.
Back where it all did begin.
Memories flash right before my eyes,
Remembering, missing,sinking in.

The passing wind reminds me
Your breath on my neck, whispering.
Those words unknown to others,
Your voice in my head, ever lingering.

The first time that you touched me,
Every wall, every fear broke down.
The fire that ran through me,
Once again, in that inferno,my heart drowns.

Every smile, every twinkle of your eyes.
Every frown, every wrinkled nose.
I remember,I keep remembering.
Every moment we spent far and close.

The way your kisses left me shaking,
Overcome with emotions, numb.
Every touch, every burning touch.
Every word, to which I'd succumb.

I remember you, and all the lines on your hand.
I remember it all, I remember it all the time.
I remember every laugh we laughed, every tear we cried.
I remember everything, every moonlight and crime.

I remember all the lies, and all the truths and taunts.
I remember all my fears, and all the darkness of my heart.
I remember all our fights, I remember all our tears.
I remember our last kiss, just like the one at the start.

I feel my heart sink, the way it did that day.
The hesitating hands, the uncomfortable embrace.
 Wanting to melt away, into you, as always.
The look in your eyes, the tears on my face.

I reminisce,I muse.
I recollect, I surrender.
Surrender to the past,
 Pieces in entirety I remember.

Every little thing reminds me of you,
Every passing breeze, every blurred face.
I go whirling down memory lane.
Lost in this torpor, in you, always.

I let these memories of mine,
Like water wash over me, over my mind.
And just as water, uncaptured by hand,
I pass lifeless through the clutches of time.

This bittersweet pain that your memories leave,
I wish these rains would wash it away.
This nostalgia, it's very becoming of me.
There is nothing left,on my lips,is just your name.

Nevermore

Fingers entwined, they walk the roads,

Their roads, their paths, their secret windows. 

Nothing trembles, there are no chills;
A pleasant, warm sun shines through.

In a town, where rains are rare,
A calm sun shines all through the day.
No winds that blow away the dust,
That settles in the yellowing dog-eared books.

They sit together, and eat, and talk,
They walk together, like hands of a clock.
Nothing to keep them apart, not them.
Just time, each day, perhaps.

He watches her go, he watches her work,
He watches her smile, an infrequent perk.
She leaves on his arm, full glory of the Sun,
Steals glances at the sky, won't no cloud come?

Another day, a bright sun, and no rain.
An empty dance floor, she sighs once again.
Lonely, she knows, he won't make it.
And finds his arm, outstretched, waiting.

"One dance?" he asks, and smiles and waits,
"One dance", she thinks, and hesitates.
Brown eyes, so warm, and yet so cold.
She takes his hand, and off she goes.

In a blink of an eye, one turned to many,
They danced, and laughed, and drank a-plenty.
He was no where to be seen, but he'd always been there.
The clouds dark and heavy; somehow, she didn't care.

The storm that started then, dead pages did resurrect,
Fingers and souls, turned and twisted, together, perfect.
The clink of her ring was drowned in the sounds,
Of the patter of the rain drops, against broken breaths.

The cold winds blowing everything together,
The dark wet night, the sudden change of the weather.
The careless laughs, the uninhibited frenzy.
The unknown emotions, intoxication, the ecstasy.

When the clouds cleared, she knew she had to leave.
He knew she'd go back to him, no point in any plea.
There were no words, no promises, no need for any.
Forever the memories, forever the fervor, and yet, nevermore.