Sunday, 23 November 2014

December

December rolls in,
Come here, hold my hand.
Let me save this warmth
In a jar that will on my table stand,
While I would await.

Alone, under the stars.
Deserted, in the rains.
While wind would wrestle in your hair,
Where my fingers once did find place,
It would be my sleep, my peace blown away.

Remembering your whispers,
I will shiver, and fall.
Without your arms to catch me.
But closing my eyes, I will forget it all.
And find myself in your embrace again.

Your voice would be mine,
Guiding me through the distance.
Your words, your thoughts, mine yours.
But, oh, what a terrible way of existence,
No sun, no moon, no air.


Monday, 17 November 2014

Time is all we don't have.

Another leaf has fallen.
Another petal now brown.
Another moment has passed.
Another thought in mind drowned.
Let it go, let it go.
Time is all we don’t have.
Wake up, and realise,
Desire is another ever-binding trap.
A glance, a touch, an embrace.
None too many, none too less.
Just enough to save me now.
Just enough for sanity to efface.
I counted wrong, a long while ago.
I counted one too many.
The ever ticking clocks that glowed in the dark.
No, time doesn’t wait for any.
Collecting names and moments
Alone, I will. Alone, I shall.
Moments of end sooner here. 
Dementia, oh how you me enthrall.

Tuesday, 21 October 2014

The Green Monster

A tiny tentacle creeped out
From behind.
And grabbed on, held on,
No slight.
"Harmless", they thought.
The monster smiled.
And readied itself,
For another strike.

They floated ahead,
The tentacle forgotten.
Repressed, Restrained,
Uselessly begotten.
In a world golden,
Red and untroubled.
A sudden flash of green
Unknown, on the surface bubbled.

Desire, want, unprecedented.
Ill, sick, unholy.
Gushing through every vein
Tentacles tightening, unduly.
Securing its grip,
Digging deep.
Right till the soul
The green essence seeps.

Suffocating, smothering
The tendrils, the fumes unbidden.
Feeding on their own fears
Both unknown, and those hidden.
Slowly, engulfing their whole,
No means of escape, no rationale.
The green monster emerges,
And all else fails.

Why do we hide, Bruce?

The winds blew the blue curtains at his window into a messy, convoluted mess. Bruce shivered in his bed, and tossed on to the other side, facing away from the window. The blanket was thick, but it wasn’t helping him keep warm. ‘Count down from 100.’ It always worked. 100. 99. 98. 97. ‘What was that?’ Something flew near his window, but it was too dark to make anything out. Bruce pulled the blanket over his head and started counting again. 96. 95. 94.
The whistling wind broke his concentration. He slowly moved the blankets to peek out of the blanket. The darkness was opaque. Bruce quivered a little. ‘Horrible vantage point. Need to know how to get a better one.’ Another movement. ‘Must not be fearful. Must check it out.’ The branches moved in a weird manner. The moonlight lit up a few of them, and their shadows hid all the others. Bruce climbed out of his bed and slipped into his coat. Cautiously, he walked to the window. The branches made queer shapes. The wind kept changing the branch that was receiving the light. ‘Things are darker in the light.’
When he looked down, Bruce couldn’t see the ground. When he looked up, the only thing he could see was himself, flying in the clouds.  Something moved in the woods outside. Quick, and bright. Bruce wondered what it was. He felt the fear wash over his mind. The dull numbness in the back of his head suddenly grew sharp; his heart started beating faster, and faster still; he could feel a weird sweat trickle down his neck. ‘Fear must be conquered.’ His dad always told him that fears must be faced, but Bruce knew that there were only 2 possibilities when it came to fear- you conquer it, or it destroys you. And Bruce knew, in his gut, he knew, that this darkness had to be conquered.
Bruce tiptoed out into the woods. The rustling of the leaves and the whooshing of the branches were the only sounds he could make out, apart from the screeching winds. He waited at the boundary for a little while, gathering courage, courage and strength. It was a cold night. ‘Just see what it is, that is all.’ Every crevice and nook seemed alive to him. The vegetation that normally looked warm and welcoming to him in the day suddenly started taking shapes that beckoned him to leave, to run, far, far away. A sharp movement on his left made the air get caught in his larynx. Instinctively he ran towards his right, the only sounds buzzing in his ears were those of his own heavy breathing, and of his heavy footsteps crunching the dried leaves. A sudden whisper of the wind at his neck made him scream out loud, but he kept his balance, and kept up his pace. He ran in further, in to the darkness, in to the void.
Just a few rays of the morning sun managed to penetrate through the canopy and reach the floor of the woods. Bruce realised that there was fallen tree a few step ahead. ‘Hide in the trunk.’ Bruce ran faster than he ever had. In one swift movement, he was inside the trunk. He heaved a sigh of relief, and closed his eyes. A low hiss made the hair on the back of his head stand. Slowly he opened his eyes, and saw in the darkness, thirty, small glowing balls of light. A small gasp escaped his mouth, but the dominoes had already begun falling. The bats flew right at him, squealing, sharp, and out of the opening, in to the light. Bruce had hidden his face in between his thighs, but he felt each of the bats’ wings on his head. Fear had frozen all his other senses. He could still feel their wings on his head, but he knew they were long gone. ‘They are gone. They are gone, don’t be scared.’ He breathed. ‘Fear is the strongest driving force. Fear doesn’t need to be eradicated. Just harnessed.’ Bruce was lost in fear, but in a completely different way now.
He heard his name being called in the distance. He didn’t move. He felt himself being pulled out of the trunk, he heard Alfred’s doting voice wash over his being. Thomas hugged Bruce.
“I hid. I was scared. I was scared. So I hid.”
Thomas held Bruce’s hand, and looked at him.
“Why do we hide, Bruce? So we can finally find ourselves.”

Saturday, 30 August 2014

You

You aren't my moon,
To reflect everything I bestow upon you
In the dark.
You are my mirror.
Letting the real me show up,
Hiding no flaw nor a mark.

You aren't the wind,
That blows me away,
Or makes it difficult to stand.
You are the breeze
That does me cool keep,
And plays with looser hair strands.

You aren't a dream,
That is gone once seen.
Or right there, and not in my hand.
You are the truth,
Though surreal and crude,
Unbelievable and beautifully unplanned.

You aren't a place
That I go to to hide,
Where someone me might follow.
You are this journey,
That is us, that is me,
And mine, today and tomorrow.

Thursday, 7 August 2014

The Ship

A ship then sailed
A twilight then rang.
They trusted in the winds
And downed rains unplanned
A lust for treasures known
And never truly had.
A darkness they misused
Disguised and hid their tracks.
They moved through the waters
Slowly and with vigour
Cautiously placed each finger
Mayhem silent and thicker.
The wind took them in its hand
And decided to play a game.
They held on for the love of God.
Distinctly kept calling out His name.
The mist now fogs the view.
Direction and time,both lost out.
They wait and wait to strike again.
There blows just a tiny seed of doubt.

Tuesday, 24 June 2014

Who am I?

A face etched with pain;
A beauty unforeseen.
Despair that breaks my heart,
And yet you make it beat.
Why did I find you last?
I'd never have let you bleed.

Who am I, who am I
To hurt him?
You are mine, you are mine,
But you loved him.
Say you're fine, say you're fine,
Oh, I'll make him pay.

'nother love, another love,
In another time.
Rub him out, cut him out
Out of our minds.
Make it stop, make it stop.
Let's let the light in.

The innocence of your heart.
I will keep it safe.
The demons of your past.
I'll give all it takes
In the light and dark,
There will always be faith.

Who am I, who am I
To save you?
All that's mine, all that's mine
Is because of you
You're my light, you're my light
On the darkest day.

Take my arm, take my arm
And, I'll hold you.
Know it dear, know it dear,
That I love you
Through the peace, through the storm,
Will never let you go.


Gravity

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