The Change

She was so cheery and happy
There is a change in her now.
She's not mean and snappy
But she's different somehow...

Her laugh used to be the loudest among us all,
Contagious, very musical to the ear.
Now she walks alone in the empty hall,
And lives in distrust and fear...

I smile at her, She looks at me with her empty eyes,
They were warm once, but now they're plain cold.
I try to talk to her, but i get no replies
She's just 18, how come she looks so old?

She stares out the window, but her mind is definitely not there,
I want to see her happy, to hear her sweet laughter,
I want to bring a smile to her face, remove any trace of despair.
Why did it happen to her, that horrible disaster?

Life is unfair, but why to the innocent?
She did nothing wrong, no sin ever!
Always hard working and diligent
Here she is, hurt and scarred forever...

The faith and trust she once had are gone
But i won't give up, I'll bring her back!
I know in God's chess I am a mere pawn.
But I will fill colors into her life, even though now it's just black...

It's Okay to not be Okay...

My heart beats slowly now,
"Don't be sad, smile" they say,
I don't wish to listen somehow,
It's Okay to not be Okay!

I just want to lie down, and do nothin' at all,
Morning and night, all the time in the day,
Their attempts I keep trying to stall,
They don't understand, it's Okay to not be Okay!

They keep talking, more and more and more,
I tell them to leave but they stubbornly stay!
Their chatter now makes my ears sore...
Don't they know? It's Okay to not be Okay!

They try to divert my attention, they ask me NOT to think.
I pretend to be distracted, hoping now they'd go away,
I smile with them while my heart continues to sink,
After all, it's Okay to not be Okay...

In the lonely nights, I stare into the dark,
For a brighter morning, to the Almighty I pray.
Stinging me day and night, the truth is prominent and stark,
But I know, It's Okay to not be Okay...

Life moves on, and so did I,
In someways,that's all I say,
I'm okay now, though I still don't fly...
But I'll always know, It's Okay to not be Okay...

Please Don't Remind Me Again...

I know all good things come to an end,
Please don't remind me again.
I know what message you're trying to send,
But please don't remind me again.
I know what I'm supposed to do,
Please don't remind me again.
I know what this means to you,
But please don't remind me again.
I know what the future will hold,
Please don't remind me again.
I know you don't want to be told,
Yet, please don't remind me again.
I know everything that I should,
Please don't remind me again.
I know all you want is our good,
But please don't remind me again.
I know you don't want to be hurt,
Please don't remind me again.
I know you'd want back your shirt,
But, please, don't remind me again.
I know you're trying to be strong,
Please don't remind me again.
I know my demands here are wrong,
But please don't remind me again.
I know you don't want this love anymore,
Please don't remind me again.
I know why you're walking out that door,
But please don't remind me again.
I know I should try to move on too,
Please don't remind me again.
But I know I still love you,
Please help me undo this pain...

Emotions...:)

It's a hurricane of emotions, a storm of them,
I feel as vulnerable as a child, and as precious as a gem!
When i'm with you , its like I'm living a dream
It flows on, and I flow in its stream..
Wind blows in closed rooms, I feel a chill in the Sun,
I feel complete with you, even though I come undone!
You smile, I do too, You laugh, my heart just leaps,
All emotions at once, all together in a heap!
Sometimes you're so random, crazy and wild,
Sometimes so dignified, just serene and mild!
Your eyes, ever so warm, pore deep into my soul,
i wonder sometimes if your gaze would have burnt up a hole!
Your touch, it's like electricity, no, it's like fire,
Every part of me burns, with shyness and desire..
Your proximity baffles me
You and your eyes, that's all I see..
With you, its hard to keep track of time,
I am engulfed by these feelings sublime..
Whatever you say, I give it my best shot,
I can be myself, 'cause with others, I'm not...
I'm comfortable, safe and just fine,
Beings yours, and having you as mine...