Broken Toys

As children bring their broken toys,

With tears for us to mend;

I brought my broken dreams to God

Because he was my friend.

But then instead of leaving him in peace to work alone,

I hung around and tried to help, with ways that were my own.

At last I snatched them back and cried

"How could you be so slow?"

"My child," He said, "What could I do?

You never did let go..."
-author unknown

Things I'll Never Say

I’m tugging at my hair
I’m pulling at my clothes
I’m trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I’m staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I’m searching for the words inside my head

(Cause) I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
Yeah

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Guess, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say

It don’t do me any good
It’s just a waste of time
What use is it to you
What’s on my mind
If ain’t coming out
We’re not going anywhere
So why can’t I just tell you that I care

What’s wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I’ve got nothing to say

Guess I’m wishing my life away with these things I’ll never say
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you...away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
These things I’ll never say
-Avril Lavigne

The moment.

He smiled at me, my heart flipped,
My breath slowed, the words just slipped.
He has this effect, that makes me do t hings I would never do,
I am not the type to giggle, but with him, I do that too!

What's happening to me? I can hardly understand it,
My heart races in his presence, its like he is a catalyst!
I can't help but smile when I see him,
He lights up the world, cause the past now seems dim!

When he confessed his love, I was left dumbstruck,
I couldn't believe the truth, I couldn't believe my luck.
But it was true, is true, I should say,
And will remain so, again, if I may.

It was a moment of weakness, and yet I'd never felt more strong,
I still don't think even a leaf was at place that was wrong.
It was perfect, it was flawless,a dream come true.
Even though I was clueless, I couldn't believe that it was true.!

I felt the blush, I felt the blood rush to my face.
It felt so right, the way everything was falling into place.
The crowd on the path just vanished, and only we were left,
Sitting on that bench, with no feeling bereft.

It was cute, and indirect, the first confession that came,
The smile on the face, the naughtiness, still the same.
Perfection personified, that's the only way of his description,
And 'tis true, no fable, nor a fiction.

It was spontaneous, it was incredible,
It was magical,unbelievable.
Fantasy and the truth combined,
And a miracle! he became only mine.

Habits

Habits don't just come and go,
they come, and stay, they rarely ever do leave.
When a habit becomes a habit, we may never really know,
Or so I think, as another habit weaves.

Habits don't die, they live with us,
Of course, they may go on a never ending sabbatical.
Who knows when a habit breaks, no one ever does.
Keeping a track seems fit, but impractical.

Habits don't just have to be things,
People can become our habits too,
What one does, says, hears or thinks,
Can be the habit for another person, or two.

People-habits are the most dangerous ones,
These sabbaticals hurt the heart the most.
The absence creates darkness, that can't by even a million suns can't be undone,
But life goes on, lifeless, like a ghost.
Whether the absence is for a month or a day,
Life is hard, breathing is strenuous and unfulfilling,
The heart at memories, does set its bay,
And each moment is hard, extremely gruelling.

These people-habits, like addictions, make us needy.
Desperate for their company, it leaves us wounded.
Our heart lies alone, bleeding.
The horrible emptiness, the feeling of being undead.

For our completion, for our healing,
We need those people, for our happiness, up close,
Cause only they can undo the fiery heart ache feelings,
Cause only they are our drug's last dose.

The Wedding...

Down the carriage, what awaits us is a breathtaking sight;
Adorning the path are flowers pink and white.
The mood is merry, happiness all around;
The bride sits on the bench, having her friends her surround.

Dressed in white, she smile when they tease us,
It's no secret as to why the day seems to please her
Her pink face glows with joy pure and divine,
Her eyes twinkle, each hair in line,
A little worried, slightly tense;
After all its a big event about to commence!
Her heart races,with excitement galore,
She can't really conceal it anymore,
That beautiful smile does not seem to leave her face,
Nervously she fiddles with her dress and its pretty lace.
Her parents wonder how quickly time races,
Looking at their angel and how herself she braces,
For the new tomorrow, for a new life,
For a new home, to be somebody's wife,
I enter the chapel, people are seated already
They sit upright, no poise there is unsteady,
The groom stands tall, with pride he beams,
He tries to hide how his joy has outburst all seams.
He wonders how she's feeling, his bride, his love,
He imagines her pretty face, and thanks the Lord up above.
He hopes she is waiting for the moment as much as he did.
He hopes it doesn't pain her too much when good byes she'll bid,
To her father and mother, and her dear home,
Her brother and her room, even the garden gnome.
As he waits down the aisle, to marry his lovely bride,
He promises to himself, that he'll love her more with each stride.

The wedding march begins, and enter the mother and her boy,
Everyone can see how the day brings both sorrow and joy.
Nervousness and ecstasy blend on the face of the bride's mother,
As she's escorted in, by the bride's loving brother.
His little sister's thoughts flood his mind,
Her laugh, her cries, memories, with tears make him blind.
Following them are the groom's men and the bride's maids,
Dresses in pink, with magnolias adorning their braids.
Hopping come in 2 girls, throwing around pink petals,
Out of their tiny baskets made of lace and silver metal.
Everyone's eyes settle on the man and his daughter,
As they glide into the hall, smoothly as water.
The father looks ahead, at his son-in-law,
All he sees is a man, beholding his daughter with love and awe,
He take a deep breath, and gives that man a smile,
Puts in his firm hand, his daughter's hand, agile,
The wedding vows are read, and the "I do"s said.
He lifts her veil, which had been covering her face all this while,
Looks into her eyes,and sees how they glitter and smile,
He whispers to her how much he had miss her,
And slowly he bends, and lightly does kiss her,
Sparks and chills run through them both,
And silently they do take love's oath.
People come in to congratulate the couple,
Their presence makes the joy seem doubled.
People proceed to the banquet hall,
No corner undecorated, nor empty is an wall.
Then fills the hall,  music smooth and calm
Everything is perfect, no reason for alarm.
The first dance of the couple starts then,
And is watched by all Gods and men,
As the newly weds glide over the floor,
Holding each other, closer than before,
The song ends then but they continue to dance,
They wanted to hold each other,at each and every chance,
They had to pause, but not to their dismay,
The music for the father-daughter dance had begun to play.
The father smiled as he danced with her after so many years,
He remembered his little girl, and his eyes welled up with tears.
So did hers, a lump formed in her throat,
what she said then I'd like to quote,
"Thank you for being such a wonderful dad,
No one could have possibly have a dad as great as I have had"
He hugged and told her she would always be loved,
And that she was a daughter better than he ever deserved.
with tearful smiles, they danced some more,
like they used to, just like before.
The wedding came to an end, and she hugged her family then,
And left with her husband, suddenly when,
He cupped her face in his hands,
Said, " as long as we live, I want you to understand,
That I'll never leave you, this I promise to you,
And my love for you will always be true."
She smiled at him, looked right in his eyes,
and told him,that with only him, her heart will forever lie.
And thus they set on the ride into their new life,
As man, and his lawfully wedded wife...

Are looks all that matter?

There she goes, that innocent girl,
And following her, eyes everywhere turn.
She doesn't know why they all stared.
She keeps her head bowed and walks on.

 They hoot and jeer, they call out to her,
She keeps her head down through it all,
In her heart she has a fear,
But on her face, she doesn't let it dawn.

As time passes by,she grows prettier by the day,
And the crowd just thickens as she walks down her way.
And with the growth in the number of her fans,
Grows her ego, she is now full of vain.


She thinks her friends leave her because they are jealous,
of her looks and her flawless skin,
Little did she know, she had herself kicked them out,
Cause she was so full of herself.

Soon, the vain brought her down,
Her nature had a stench,
It drew people away from her,
And the she learnt her lesson.

Often times in life, one's looks do dominate
and at such times its wise, to keep on oneself a check,
A good nature is essential,its nice to be nice,
After all,are looks all that matter in life?

Still Life

Scenes go rushing by,
People scurry away like ants;
Even before it settles infront of my eye,
The moment has passed, right out of my hand.

Snap! It changes-the scene again.
Circumstances, situations, people-none the same.
Sometimes change can be sch a pain!
Popularity-then loneliness, and a sudden lack of fame.

Life was running out, like sand from my fingers,
Everything was havoc, inanimate motion.
Somewhere, in the back of my mind, a memory would linger,
But none to stay, or clarify life's notions.

Sudden, like a gust of wind, came along another change,
And changed everything, unlike how the previous ones did,
The motion, it came to a sudden stop, strange!
But the best change it is, I'd like to admit.

A new light, a new way of looking at life;
A still life, atleast that's how it looks,
An easier living, smiling without much strife,
That's how by you, my life has been shook.

Every moment is longer, more full of life than ever,
I grasp every shade, fairy tale and fable.
Everything you do seems right, everything said clever,
I love how your presence makes my life so stable.

The tremors of change aren't all that strong now,
Life is slower, more enjoyable, full of colour.
Still life, more beautiful, more full of rainbows,
Still life, yet more exuberant and full of fervor.

Celebrations, festivals-every other day.
Fireworks stay in the sky, till I've seen every spark;
And everyday, with more trust now I pray.
Cause now, I have my guiding light, to guide me out of the dark.

Her Heart...

Her heart was racing crazy wild,
Her breaths she kept trying to mild,
Every now and then, she's sneak a look at his face;
And each time that their eyes met, she was left in a daze.

She couldn't stare at his face for more than 2 seconds at a times;
Cause after that her heart would race like caught committing a crime;
He was sitting opposite her, engrossed in his books;
And she was engrossed in his warm eyes and brilliant looks.

Constantly fearing that he might just hear,
The sound of her heart beating, loud and clear;
Through the silence of the quiet library hall,
The thought of that that made her flying heart fall.

She tried to concentrate on what she was reading,
But she was distracted by her heart's erratic beating.
He moved in his chair, her heart skipped a beat,
Was he already leaving? or worse! changing his seat?

Neither, it turned out, he just picked another book,
And she was wondering how to grab his attention,by hook or crook!
Must be some weird book he's reading, she thought with a frown,
He's been reading it since quite long, keeping it upside down!

Her brain told her to leave, to go away from him,
Her heart hold her to wait, ignoring the brain grim.
He looked up to look at something that very minute,
Her heart said he was blushing, but she didn't believe it.

She decided to leave, she gathered her belongings,
He started packing too, and she looked at him with longing.
She walked out of the hall, clutching her bag tightly,
She felt sad and lonely, even incomplete slightly.

"Hey" a deep voice boomed behind her,
Slowly she turned, and saw him standing beside her.
Her heart stopped beating, her eyes widened in surprise,
He was really there, in truth,sweet and nice!

"Hi" she managed to say, with a small, weak smile;
Then there was a silence, for a little while.
"I don't know how to say this" he said, fidgeting a little,
Her heart was thumping pretty hard, it seemed a little brittle.

"I don't mean to scare you, but I just can't seem to stop,
Thinking about you, you are in my every thought.
I know we don't really know each other that well,
But if you give me a chance, for us it would be swell!"

Her heart was still beating fast, maybe faster than light.
She couldn't believe how everything was falling in places right;
Dis he really mean what she thought he meant?
Did he really spend every minute like he said he spent?

"I can't concentrate, all I think about is you",
Looking in her eyes, he once again continued;
"Ever since I've seen you, my world's gone upside down,
And every single second, in your thoughts, further I drown."

"That explains the book", she thought to herself and smiled,
Her heart was sort of jumping, like a little child.
"Somehow every time I see you", she said,"my heart always flutters",
"And if you could walk me home, we could get to know each other",

He smiled and said,"I'd love to", and they begun to walk,
They laughed and shared, and continued their sweet talk.
Her heart found peace, as did his,and love was in the air;
And thus they found happiness, true joy, passion and care! 

Orange!

  As I walk down the empty road,
On this morning, bright and cold,
I am amazed by what I behold;
And this is how the view unfolds.

Amidst the many hues of green,
In these bushes, thick and clean.
Are some blossoms earlier unseen,
Bright and orange, so full of sheen.

The sudden change in the view,
Baffles me, seems out of the blue,
And just like the first few drops of dew,
Thoughts settle in my mind, fresh and new.

Even in our lives there are times when
We are encountered by such situations and men,
That seem somewhat impossible to happen,
But still are, right there and then.

Changes can come come anytime and anywhere
And sometimes, all we do is stand and stare;
And sometimes when we get  for what we care,
It seems like God has answered our deepest prayer.

But sometimes in life, there comes a time,
When all we do ends up with results of crimes.
And at such times it feels like we've eaten just limes,
And self esteem is so low, it wouldn't be worth a dime!

But this is when I must remember what I have just seen,
That there can be orange, randomly in the green.
So if right now, life seems dull and ugly as a spleen,
Know that very soon, its going to be better than your dream!

The World Spins Madly On

Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
I thought of you and where you'd gone
and let the world spin madly on

Everything that I said I'd do
Like make the world brand new
And take the time for you
I just got lost and slept right through the dawn
And the world spins madly on

I let the day go by
I always say goodbye
I watch the stars from my window sill
The whole world is moving and I'm standing still

Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
The night is here and the day is gone
And the world spins madly on

I thought of you and where you'd gone
And the world spins madly on.
                                             -The Weepies

I Wish You Were Here

Its been a while since I saw you last
All we had, all we shared, is a thing of the past.
But even today, in my heart its your voice I hear
And even now, I wish you were here.

We talk everyday, anytime that is possible for us,
We're on the phone till dawn from dusk.
When you succeed, mine is the loudest cheer,
More than ever somehow, I wish you were here.

You know how I'm feeling without a word from me,
You're a thousand miles away, but you still somehow see.
You watch over me, even though we're not near,
Over and over I repeat, I wish you were here.

I close my eyes and I see your smiling face
I yearn to be with you, play a game of chase.
As the time flies by, distance becomes harder to bear,
Everynight when I pray, I wish you were here.

I still remember everything we did and said,
You've become that little voice in the back of my head;
You are there in every smile and each tear,
But right now, I wish you were here.

I miss holding your arm when I'm scared or alone.
I miss your hugs and that sweet comforting tone.
I miss how your presence dissolved away every fear,
I try not to, but I wish you were here.

You're always on my mind, its like your permanent address,
Your face is the one that flashes in moments of sadness.
Your memories somehow, to everything adhere,
And I want to let you know, I wish you were here.

And so it begins...

I open my eyes to a different ceiling now,
For a moment, I want to close them again.
But then I open them as I remember my vow,
And so it begins, my morning with hopes for rain.

Monotonously I move, completing my daily chores,
I realize I'm smiling, thinking about the dream I'd just seen.
I am present here, while my mind wanders on different shores,
And so it begins, my routine, like a fixed machine.

The Sun is bright, the birds chirp tirelessly away,
The mood is lightening now, and i feel the weight lift off me.
The trees are tall, but where they are they stay,
And so it begins, my day, with smiles as true as they can be.

Its new, all this, its something unknown,
I miss the old times, but i like it here.
yes, I have reaped what once I'd sown,
And so it begins, my hope with no single tear.

Yes, I wish that this change would slow down,
And yes, I know how less the possibility is,
But I have the strength to get rid of my frown,
And so it begins, my life, hopefully, full of bliss.

The Change

She was so cheery and happy
There is a change in her now.
She's not mean and snappy
But she's different somehow...

Her laugh used to be the loudest among us all,
Contagious, very musical to the ear.
Now she walks alone in the empty hall,
And lives in distrust and fear...

I smile at her, She looks at me with her empty eyes,
They were warm once, but now they're plain cold.
I try to talk to her, but i get no replies
She's just 18, how come she looks so old?

She stares out the window, but her mind is definitely not there,
I want to see her happy, to hear her sweet laughter,
I want to bring a smile to her face, remove any trace of despair.
Why did it happen to her, that horrible disaster?

Life is unfair, but why to the innocent?
She did nothing wrong, no sin ever!
Always hard working and diligent
Here she is, hurt and scarred forever...

The faith and trust she once had are gone
But i won't give up, I'll bring her back!
I know in God's chess I am a mere pawn.
But I will fill colors into her life, even though now it's just black...

It's Okay to not be Okay...

My heart beats slowly now,
"Don't be sad, smile" they say,
I don't wish to listen somehow,
It's Okay to not be Okay!

I just want to lie down, and do nothin' at all,
Morning and night, all the time in the day,
Their attempts I keep trying to stall,
They don't understand, it's Okay to not be Okay!

They keep talking, more and more and more,
I tell them to leave but they stubbornly stay!
Their chatter now makes my ears sore...
Don't they know? It's Okay to not be Okay!

They try to divert my attention, they ask me NOT to think.
I pretend to be distracted, hoping now they'd go away,
I smile with them while my heart continues to sink,
After all, it's Okay to not be Okay...

In the lonely nights, I stare into the dark,
For a brighter morning, to the Almighty I pray.
Stinging me day and night, the truth is prominent and stark,
But I know, It's Okay to not be Okay...

Life moves on, and so did I,
In someways,that's all I say,
I'm okay now, though I still don't fly...
But I'll always know, It's Okay to not be Okay...

Please Don't Remind Me Again...

I know all good things come to an end,
Please don't remind me again.
I know what message you're trying to send,
But please don't remind me again.
I know what I'm supposed to do,
Please don't remind me again.
I know what this means to you,
But please don't remind me again.
I know what the future will hold,
Please don't remind me again.
I know you don't want to be told,
Yet, please don't remind me again.
I know everything that I should,
Please don't remind me again.
I know all you want is our good,
But please don't remind me again.
I know you don't want to be hurt,
Please don't remind me again.
I know you'd want back your shirt,
But, please, don't remind me again.
I know you're trying to be strong,
Please don't remind me again.
I know my demands here are wrong,
But please don't remind me again.
I know you don't want this love anymore,
Please don't remind me again.
I know why you're walking out that door,
But please don't remind me again.
I know I should try to move on too,
Please don't remind me again.
But I know I still love you,
Please help me undo this pain...

Emotions...:)

It's a hurricane of emotions, a storm of them,
I feel as vulnerable as a child, and as precious as a gem!
When i'm with you , its like I'm living a dream
It flows on, and I flow in its stream..
Wind blows in closed rooms, I feel a chill in the Sun,
I feel complete with you, even though I come undone!
You smile, I do too, You laugh, my heart just leaps,
All emotions at once, all together in a heap!
Sometimes you're so random, crazy and wild,
Sometimes so dignified, just serene and mild!
Your eyes, ever so warm, pore deep into my soul,
i wonder sometimes if your gaze would have burnt up a hole!
Your touch, it's like electricity, no, it's like fire,
Every part of me burns, with shyness and desire..
Your proximity baffles me
You and your eyes, that's all I see..
With you, its hard to keep track of time,
I am engulfed by these feelings sublime..
Whatever you say, I give it my best shot,
I can be myself, 'cause with others, I'm not...
I'm comfortable, safe and just fine,
Beings yours, and having you as mine...

You and Me

Want to lie under the skies in your arms
Protected by love and all possible charms
Under the moon , beneath the bright stars
Unaware of others,of boundaries and bars..
A place with just us, just you and me
No sorrow, nor any misery..
A place with no hurt and no pains,
A place with bright sunshines and heavy rains,
Oh! and there'll be rainbows too,
Just for you and me, for us two..
No room for fuss, there would be just us,
Just us, and our smiles without any purpose,
A place where you and me can be in forever
Happily ourselves, us together.
There would be no hiding, nor any pretense,
No walls between us nor any form of fence..
Our laugh will be the music pure and divine,
I will be yours and you'll be just mine
A place to dance, to sing, to love,
A place to be free, free as a dove...

Is there?

Is there a place where no one needs to fit in?
Where all that matters is what is within?
Is there a place where we can cherish the reality?
Where there is an inherent transition between truth and morality?
Is there a place so blessed, that the air has the fragrance of love?
Where the gracious Gods smile at everyone from up above?
Is there a place of equality, of compassion and of care?
Where smiles and laughs are things that no one minds to share?
I'm sure there is this Heaven on Earth where we'll surely dwell  someday,
And if we can't find it, then for sure, we'll make it ourselves one day...