A Kindling Soul

I wish I wouldn't forget. But I do.I Always do. Make a beautiful memory. Or steal a couple from you. It's always those I cherish the most. Is this fate? I wouldn't know. Are memories made so one day we forget? Like fireflies-Incomplete and aglow. It wasn't just a wintry night, It wasn't a confession nor acceptance of defeat, At the hands of this world, this big bad world, In which we live, of which we breathe. There are some days I reminisce, There are sometimes I wish I'd known. That like flames of fire, that glaze and die, Out of my head memories'll be thrown. I try to memorize, every cut and every line, When there is nothing else, this is on my mind. While I may believe, there is life to live, My mind is in the past, searching, writhing.

I remember not how we ended up in that spot Nor how there were such scintillations in the darkness opaque I remember turning and finding your eyes, Then turning away, such revelations at stake. I remember your finger under my chin I remember my eyes peering into yours The careful brush against my lips The twinkle in your eyes before mine closed. I remember the tightening grip As your arm moved on my waist I remember the tingles, and all the chills I remember putting my hand on your face. I remember not how my hands reached your hair Nor how your hands were on my back,bare, I remember though, the smile on your lips, I remember the intimacy we shared. I remember my heart beating I remember hearing yours too Not a single beat together Not a single beat out of tune. I remember a beautiful dream, I remember the halcyon and peace I remember your knowing smile. I remember not you being such a tease. You left in the morning. And I did too. I remember the last look you...

Life was a puzzle, I declared solved. You made my heart the missing piece. Oh, you beautiful thief. You stand at the finish line Having made my heart rush and race. For it to stop you wait.  Without exchanging a word, Our eyes talk. In a crowd of people long forgotten or never talked of. In a game of chase, we remain stuck Forever in a loop, Who chases who? We reach out for each other In a room clandestine. Both hiding, both fighting. We are so good at faking indifference, There is no point in keeping score I can't bear to, anyway,any more. Invested in hide and seek,forever. We both could hide, and neither would look, One is the sea, the other a brook. Each plays the pawn, while each is the king. Each makes moves the other anticipates, Neither can lose, neither elates. These games our hearts play, Leave my brain bewildered. And,now, it has surrendered.

How can this be friendship? How can this be love? How can this be anything Not written in Heavens above? How can there be such anger Doused with that much lust? How can there be magnanimous desire In a land of adulterated rust? How can someone contain In their eyes the fires of hell, And have the placid serendipity Of Shangri-La as well? How is it that someone Can bring in so much color, In a life made grey by everything They represent,they do,they savour? How can the infallible so easily fall, When dependable is all they'd ever been? How can there be such exuberance In things that aren't supposed to have been? How can your presence burn me up And make me pine for more? How can water both quench your thirst, And leave you as parched as before? How can I wish to hold your hand, When my heart will never be yours? When I know you need me right by your side, How can I not plunge into these wars? How could I think that fanning a spark, Won't ...

I count the steps you take, When you walk away, And take my heart with. I think you do, at least, Cause the void that's in my chest. Couldn't really be anything else. The absence of you, of your smell, Leaves me mad, leaves me depressed. Oh, come back to me. I'd rather take your indifference, Than the heartbreak of your absence. Please, do not leave. My soul is scarred, your truancy burns. At every footstep, my head turns. Desperation, is this not? Come back, come back soon. Don't walk away, don't lengthen this June. It kills me when you are gone.

I catch my eyes drifting, To you, and your beautiful face. He's sitting right beside you, And I can't help but stare. I'd stand up now, and kiss you. Right now, right here. I'd leave all, and run with you, If you'd only care. I watch you watch me all day, From the corner of my eye. I can't just let you do that, He's sitting right by my side! I long to let you hold me, To lie in your embrace, tight I hold my breath and wait For the blanket of the night. He plays with your hair, Caresses your face Gets to drown in your eyes, And hold you by the waist. Everytime he touches you, It rips to shreds my bliss. I feel my heart crash and burn. Why are you only his? He is a beautiful soul, Like me, so much like me. You are so very different, Then how come you make me free? You say all you've learnt of love, You have from seeing us. You say you know now what a heartbeat is. But all I know-is being his.

The shooting stars above our heads, Sparks flying through the air,  Between us. Tearing my patience to shreds, Your silent looks, that volatile stare. Oh, how my strengths you test. The tick of the clocks, The light bugs, And your glowing skin. The racing pulses, eyes talk. Passion unplugged. And the beautiful sky we soar in. As you push back from my face,  Strands of hair come loose. I hold my breath. The air satiates with your taste. Our hearts rush, neither calling a truce, Is this sweet death? Your fingertips trace my hand, My face, my back. My soul. Everything wanted and unplanned, Rising from smoke, pitch black, Take shapes beyond my control. The breeze leaves me shivering, cold; Or is that you? It is, isn't it? Your touch tingles, lures,bites, and scores. And without much ado,  My heart, and soul you aggravate. Myself, I try to free,from pain, From you, from your embrace. I avoid those cold,...